discombobulated

     maybe i need to give myself some more time but i am just finding myself so utterly shattered and shaken with this passed month's events.  i have always been so sure of what i believed and who i believed in and lately... i don't know... its all coming down fast.  and i'm drowning. i feel every fiber of my being changing and i can't tell yet if its for better or worse.  what i do know, however, is that every time you find yourself sure about something in life, be ready, cuz somethin is gonna come along at some point to shake up your faith.  comfortable is never permanent.  that's life. maybe i'm being negative, and i really do hope thats what it is, cuz coming to this realization has been very very hard on me.  bleh.  hurting is way over rated.