stuck in a rut. that's how i feel. only its an emotional one... if you can call it that. maybe i'm just still in mourning, i don't know. what i do know, however, is that i am not looking forward to this winter. i hate winter as it is, and now i have to feel like this and endure it? come on!!! something needs to give before this swallows me whole. its getting harder and harder to hide the way my heart is aching.
i'm trying to hold on to the positives... my family, great friends, job, puppy, place to live, food, air, etc. but why is it that no matter how much you have to be thankful for the bad always seems to outweigh the good? like, you have to try super hard to feel happy, but the smallest thing can send you into a whirlwind of depression? STUPID! i hate it. and i hate when the sunshine in my life gets dimmer because people who don't deserve to die, do. these are not people we need to rid the earth of. these are people needed to make this world better... so why are they taken away? its not fair! just sayin...
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